In July this year, a significant situation happened in my life. I’m not going into details about the situation but it was a game changer. It shook me and it was time for me to wake up and take action. No excuses.
It was a week before my birthday ( let’s say I’ve hit my mid 30s) and I’d put a lot of trust into another person and was totally and utterly let down. Disappointed. Disempowered. Shattered. So what did I do? I said, ” Stuff this, I’m not waiting for no one!” Dust myself off and got to work.
Id always wanted to live closer to my parents, so I wanted to work on my mindset. The idea of obtaining a big enough deposit for a house, simply overwhelmed me. I was on a basic wage, had high outgoings and felt helpless. I needed to change my mindset. Seriously look at my outgoings and make some big decisions. I looked online at houses, I day dreamed and I set some short, medium and long term goals. I wrote them down. Then I wondered how the hell was I going to achieve it.
As silly as it sounds, I took my destiny into my own hands.
In July 2015, I started researching my options.
I started thinking, about my hearts desire, again.
A few months before my twin sisters unexpected death nearly 3 years ago I was introduced to Dr Wayne Dyer, and I listened to so many of his motivational talks, Mastering the Art of Manifesting. It got me thinking about my ideal life. I constantly thought about living in remote Tasmania, on a big block of land, with solar power, water tanks and mini farm. Couple of kids, working from home and traveling the world regularly. I recall when I was 20 years or so that I was asked what was my ideal place, a similar vision appeared.
Then my twin died, about 6 weeks later and I was so grateful of all of the teachings of Dr Wayne Dyer. Especially regarding energy and how it never dies. This gave me so much comfort after my twin passed. Then I went through the most horrible grieving process that no one should have to go through, yet it’s one of the most proudest this I’ve achieved- getting though the other side without slipping into any drugs or alcohol or having a complete melt down.
Two years later this nigling feeling is still here. That feeling of empowerment. That feeling that, there is a bloody huge world out there and there are so many people that don’t reach their full potential for so many reasons. Lots not think so close minded. There is a big wide world out there!
The potential of feeling amazing, inside and out
The potential of concurring their FEARS. Using these fears to improve your life and not let it hinder anymore.
There fear of failure.
Failing as a parent.
Failing in their job.
Failing in there relationship.
Failing in feeling good about their life.
One thing I’ve learnt in the past 2 years is the power of someone believing in you. It is HUGE!
When we surround ourselves with people who are positive, happy and successful – it’s contagious. However, when you have people around you that are negative and don’t believe in you- it can break you. I normally have a big mouth, but I decided I needed to keep my goals to myself, for the time been.
If you have too, keep things to yourself. I hardly told anyone about my weight loss surgery because I did a risk assessment and didn’t want to increase the chance of people telling me I was being ridiculous, extreme and I would fail. So I just didn’t tell too many people. I only told my parents , my parented and about 3 friends.
I wanted my actions, my changing body to do the talking not a Facebook post telling the world what I was doing. As they say, actions speak louder than word. Just like my growing belly! I’ve reached 6 months pregnant now and that’s when I publically said, oh yes I’m working, studying doing my thing.. AND growing a human at the same time!
Starting this blog was a huge step for me, and part of facing my fears. Having an opinion and putting it down on “a piece of paper” is actually quiet difficult for me as I’m very very open minded and I’m very aware there are always at least 2 sides to every story.
I’Ve always been outspoken but about political social justice issues, however for the last few years I’ve been putting that extra time aside to stop trying to change the world, but improve myself and a bit of self care goes a long way!
Starting this blog was part of my studies and the universe is lining up. I’ve now found a entire community of positive go getters who are taking a leap of faith for their own happiness and I have decided to be calm yet cautious and listen to the universe as it provides me with everything I need to succeed. In 2016 and beyond! The world is huge, embrace it and get your brand out there!
If you want to know about the secret. Join me!